Sunday, March 30, 2008

guess where i am now??in HISTORY CLASS!!ahahahaha..need to do quiz but guess i rather blog lehs!!sigh..boreded!!joleen beside miee now and ii and george going to pang seh ilma and joleen in lyke 25 more minutes cos we got match todaee!!sianx..crazy siol..got three matches todaee and we have to beat all three and make it toi the finals yeah??im being so toopid now luhhs!!nehmind..everyone lyke asking miee how to do the quiz when i dunno how to!!whatthehell..nehmind..anws gonna change blogskin liaos!!joleeen helping miee!!buhh byes,<3
ii lurbed euu so much yet this is what euu gib miee back in return!!euu dunno how much pain euu hab caused miee..ii dunno why?!ii still lurb euu!

;9:43 PM

Saturday, March 29, 2008

what had been enjoyable in the past is just not the same todaee..:(
how do ii let euu know nothing's going to be okaiee,no matter how many tymes euu tell miee "everything's " going to be okaiee.
ii am worthless.ii hate myself.ii hate my lyfe,there is no reason to live
forget that euu forgot about miee pls?
ii wanted to forget euu but guess ii forgot to..
all ii want to do is to just hold euur hand again..
SECRET #6:II WANT TO HLOD EUUR HAND.
ii can always make euu smile.
it's running away..ii don't wha to be in love with euu anymore.cos im running away.i'm running away from love.
ii love euu todaee more than yestersay
ii feel weaker every morning..physically mentally and emotionally.
euu're every line.euu're every word.euu're everything.euu're every song, i sing along.bcos euu're my everything.
baby euu came into my lyfe lyke a shooting star and euu flew right pass my heart.but my heart sped up and caught up.
if euu're sweet and sincere,i'll call euu my dear.if euu're kind and funny,i'll call euu my honey.if euu're caring and smart,i'll call euu my sweetheart.if euu're all of the above,then it must be true love.
live is not to forget but to remember.not to see but to understand,not to hear but to listen,not to let go but to let go but to hold on!!Don't ever leave the one euu love for the one euu lyke.realise the one euu lyke will leave euu fer the one they love!
maybe im the one in the wrong and ii should be the one wrong.but whycant euu let miee hab another chance at lurb?its so unfair..but even if euu won't see this.im telling euu..i'll wait fer euu no matter how long it takes..cos there's one thing im sure of:ii cannot live without euu because my lyfe's supposed to be filled wid memories of miee and euu.II LURBED EUU AND NOW II NEED EUUR WARMTH!!

;10:29 PM

ENSELIA:HAHHAHAHA.dunno who just had to call miee so many tymes to ask whether this is my blog nots..ahahahahahahaha..FARNI GURL!!since im so bored nows,let miee list euu the good qualities of ENSELIA!!
1)she's kind
2)caring,
3)funny,
4)lovable,
5)and im not done wid this long long list but im lazy to continue..
haha.
about yesterday..
ii only went to elle party fer lyke 20 minutes..-.-.
then ii and georgina zhao to the chinese xiang sheng?(dunno how to spell)
then it ended around 9 plus going to ten..
wanted to ask mr seah drive us to school cos elle house there..but in the end he going somewhere before going home first!!
then decided to walk around and try to fiind cine..walk until dunnno where..
suntec there..then in the end take train to dhouby ghaut then go ps..
on the way,we asked kia hwee come out..nd it was alrdy 10.20.
he say if can eill csll bsck then he call back say can
he came out only fer 1 hour then ii cab home then he and george take mrt..hhahahahaha
feel so bad luhhs
ask him come out so late!!sadsadsadsadsadsadsadsadsadasdasdasdasdasdasdddasdsd..
sorrie ehs??
haha
now ii at home staring at the com again
cos need to stay home todaee
so buuhh byes!<3
sometimes i wish that lyfe's just a fairytale,so ii could alwae lurb euu.wo ai ni<3

;9:53 PM

Friday, March 28, 2008

omgg!!im so happie..yesterdae play wid dunman and we made it thru th next round!!i was lyke crying tears f joy!!i cant believe we won..it was lyke a miracle!!th feeling was so over whelming..and from now on,i promise the whole team that i will play 100%and push myself lyke they hace never seen before..after this shocking win..i dun wha th whole team effort to go down th drain!!GEORGE!!i told euu euu could do it de rites??see who could push herself and play fer th whole game!!euu played damn well..euu just need to hab confidence in euurself alrights..JIA YOU!!anws,later going to elle party liaos..its gonna be such a long long day fer mie and george!!haha..at nite still need to go to the chinese thingy..anws,buhh byes!!im damn happue now..smiling more!!yeah,
LETS GO TEAM!!WE CAN DO THIS..LETS BRING THIS DOWN..WE'VE PROVEN TO EVERYONE THAT WE COULD DO IT..SO LETS GO!!JIA YOU GUYS!!OUR AIM?TO BE THE CHAMPIONS ALRIGHTS!

;8:55 PM

Sunday, March 23, 2008

fuck lahs
must finish this topid science thing if nort fail..
fuck siol..
irritiating lehs
then must skip lunch of all tymes
when im lyke fucking hungry nows.
oh wells
nehmind im going to finsh it alrdy bahs
whatthehell
almost the whole class gere siol..
nehmind
anws
i hope kor wont get sent to the boys homel lah
if not i really whack her siol
anyhow send ones
wha send send miee lahs
alwae say miee des.
fuck euu lahs
i hatw euu lahs

;9:12 PM

i dun understand this family at all..which mother would wha to send her own child to th boys home?she keeps looking for means and waes to send kor there..wha the hell does she wha from hym..he alrdy talks to her nicely..he rembers her birthdae..why must she of all things over look all this??why must she look at his faults instead?!of course he has changes a lot..but why cant he acccept him for who he is now??i wha a family..would i ever be able to get it??and of all tymes..euu gotta go for a trasplant now..am i right or wrong if i say that all this things were caused by grandpa?or am i just being plain rude??do euu know how much he has taken euu away from us and how much i hate it??i'd rather be back to those days when i was fighting whenever i saw euu..at least at that tyme i still had euu..mum..i really dunno what is happening now??euu keep accusing miee of smoking..but did euu think im feeling if euu keep saying that?!i really feel damn hurt now..know how much i feel lyke just picking up a cigerette now and then smoke??sp next tyme euu say that i smoke,i can just say that'yes,i smoke!!but so what?'but im not doing that because ii dun wha euu to be worried anymore..but euu just wont let miee..but all i can tell euu is..wo bu hui rang ni fang kor zai boys home des..euu can chase miee out if the house but i dun care..thats how i wha it to be..

;12:38 AM

Friday, March 21, 2008

DESPERATE PLEA:
SOMEONE HELP MIEE CHANGE BLOG SKIN CANS??
I DUNNO HOW TO!!
JIU MING AHS!
WO HEN TOOOOOOOOPID!!!
I KNOW IM BEING AN ASSHOLE!!BUT I SERIOUSLY NEED HELP..
IF EUU CAN HELP..
PLS TELL MIEE OKAIEE?!
BUHH BYES!<3

;10:28 PM

WAKAKAKA!!im veh bored now!!hahas..just came back..was forced to go buy food wid mother..so sian ones..i cant believe its only fridaee luhhs..HAHA..but its okaiee.im being tupID ritess..nehmind..forget it..haha..okaiiee,,ouh ya!!se all these pics??its from my alst tyme sis create fer miee th friendster account!!haha..im LAMe and i know it!!anws..ttyl!!

;12:49 AM

Thursday, March 20, 2008

first of alll....thanks fer helping me whenever im feeling down or something lyke that..euu shud know who euu are..cos its obvious!!anws,lyfe has beeen reaaaal horrible for miee..haha..but nehmind..i'll be able to go thru it..ahhhhhh..nust believe..anws,i fund lyfe a funny thing!!byes

;9:46 PM

haha..played againstt sam..anws we lost..haha..dun be surpriseed..haha..she so sharp in her shots!omgg..haha..yeah..sam help me create msn account..haha..im being so stupid now luhhs..haha..yeah..haha..so long neh see sam..miss her so much..im at home doing something??guess what??haha..blogging of course!!and eating choc muffins!!shiok!haha..im reaaaaaaaaally bored pls..haaha..what can i do man??anws..im going to be an idiot alrdy!!buhh byees!!

;5:15 AM

Saturday, March 15, 2008

lets just say im seriously veh bored now luhhs..ive got nothng to do!!was supposed to go out..but thanks to my dearest mother..im suck at home wid nothng to do at all except to stone..otherwise just wait for msg to come in so i can keep myself enertained!!omgg..how i wish i could hire one entertainer to entertain me 24/7 siol..do boring here lhs..then she at here talk cock say wha..wha send me to girls home..last year still tell school..next tyme think of that straight away send me there lahs..if i get beaten up,its your fault..and when i fianlly come out and no school whas to accept me,it would be your fault too..and if i end up without a lyfe to look forward to,i woulld be able to scream into your face and say'how could you do this to me??'then i would have every single reason in this fucking world to be screaming into your face and leaving home..and all yoiu can do is to stand there look at me..not being to do anything about it cos you know its your fault that things had to turn out this way..and when i turn to leave,you wont even have the guts to stop me cos you know all you will get in return is a slap and that you neh see me again..both of us would be living seperate lives ferom that day on..so go ahead and do it!!cos after everything,i would be able to scream into your face..after havig to endure all your endless scolding and tantrums for the years i have been alive..so let me tell you!!next tyme the idea pops into your head,just go ahead with the idea alrights?i would be more than happy to leave this house of misery!!and you tell me you not trying to say that you dun trust me but dun wha me to go out cos you are scared that i will meet some bad ppl and become friends with them..so whatthehell are you trying to tell me??say in this freaking house and lead a lyfe of a dead person..just sit and wait for my death to come??i told you i alrdy promised myself i will work hard from next module onwards but you just eont believe me..what do you wha me to do before you eould blive??letting me go out once in a while wouldnt hurt at all rights??so stop controlling my lyfe..let me repeat..STOP CONTROLLING ME!!IM NOT YOUR PUPPET!!!oh.whatever..i dun care alrdy..let me lead my own lyfe from now onwards bahs..sianded..in a book, in a box,in the closet,in a line,in a song.i once heard.in a moment on a front porch late one june.in a breath inside a whisper beneath the moon..there it was at the tip of my fingers,there it was on the tip of my tongue,there you were and i have never been that far..There it was the whole world wrapped inside my arms,and i let it all slip away..what do i do now that you're gone..no back up plan,no second chance,and no on else to blame..All i can hear in the silence that remains,Are the words i couldnt say..There's a rain that will never stop falling..There's a wall that i tried to take down..what i should have said just wouldnt pass my lips..so i held back and now we've come to this..and its too late now..what do i do now that you're gone..no back up plan,no second chance,and no one else to blame..All i can hear in the silence that remains,Are the words i couldnt say..Are the words i couldnt say..Should have found a way to tell you how i felt,now the only im telling is myself..what do i do now that you're gone..no back up plan,no second chance,and no one else to blame..All i can hear in the silence that remains,Are the words i could'nt say..What do i do??what do i say??no one else to blame..All ican hear in the silence that remains,Are the words i could'nt say.....you gave me the chance to know myself better...& you know what??i realized that..I NEVER REALLY LOVED YOU..and because of what happened..you may have just saved the both of us..so now,i really dun mind if i can't tell you the words i could'nt say before..because now,there's no point in doing so....goodbye..i could'nt belive how much i hung on to you until todaeee..

;2:34 AM

Friday, March 14, 2008

I hope that days come easy and moments pass slow,
And each road leads you where you want to go,
And if you're faced with a choice,
and you have to choose,I
hope you choose the one that means the most to you.
And if one door opens to another door closed,
I hope you keep on walkin' till you find the window
f it's cold outside,
show the world the warmth of your smile,
More then anything,
more then anything,
My wish, for you,
is that this life becomes all that you want it,
To your dreams stay big,
and your worries stay small,
You never need to carry more then you can hold,
And while you're out there getting where you're getting to,
I hope you know somebody loves you,
and wants the same things too,
Yeah, this, is my wish.
I hope you never look back,
but ya never forget,
All the ones who love you,
in the place you left,
I hope you always forgive,
and you never regret,
And you help somebody every chance you get,
Oh, you find God's grace,
in every mistake,
And you always give more then you take.
Oh More then anything,
Yeah, and more then anything,
My wish, for you,
is that this life becomes all that you want it,
To your dreams stay big,
and your worries stay small,
You never need to carry more then you can hold,
And while you're out there getting where you're getting to,
I hope you know somebody loves you,
and wants the same things too,
Yeah, this, is my wish.
omgg!!my wish by rascal flatts is so nice pls..hahahaha..im addicted to it!!shit lahs..my mum dun let miee go out..if not she wha follow because she thinks im going out to meet pai kia..ahbengahlian..she what siol..dun blive des..what she wha me do??stay at home for the rest of my lyfe ahs?!fuck off lahs..i dun need you controlling my lyfe pls..ive had had enuf..so just get ut my life..

;9:04 PM

its now lyke 10.03..so bored sey..lata mayb goin out..but freakin mum dun wha give money..no money how go out siol..irritiating sia..somemore is she owe one..knn,,oh wellls,nehmind..and now shes rushing me to go tke food from grandmother when i not hungry at all..sianded..she wha eat she go and tae herself lahs..why qhy everytyme must be i go up onees..whateva lahs..anws i shud not be talking about her here..im supposed to be tryin to be closer to her!!sianded..but shes not giving me any chance to do so pls..nehmind..im so bored..i slept at 2 and expected to wake up late..but who knew i would wake up at 7.whathtehell..but i dun even feel tired so nehmind..what the fuvk!!i dun wha quarell wid her but she at herewha me scream at here liaos sia..so irritiating..cant she gimme a break..shesay sick of taking food for me..but ujn th first place i never asked her to do that..cos im not even hungry...if shes lyke that i shud just sttop eating..let her get my point first!!omgg..nehmind..at 1am,i was watching hells kitchen..so nice..but sadly heather won and not virginia..so cool..you can get your own restaurant ifyou win the competition..haha..then somemore renovations,everthing all set up for you liaos..you dun lyke they change for you then you start business..so shuang..ohwells,mother coming back soon..gotta prepare myself soi wont blow up..saty calm and composed..breathe in breathe out..sigh..

;7:03 PM

Thursday, March 13, 2008

haha..its lyke so what th hell cans..omgg..sianded..since this is th second post in lyke less then dunno how many hours..euu shud know how bored i am alrdy..ahaha..im lyke being so lame now siol!!i need entertainment desperately!!aahs..ahahahahaha..wheeeeeeeeeeeeets..ROAR!!ahahahaha...hahahahaha..alrights,better stop here if not i will go high liao..haha..tatatt..ahahahahhaha!!

;9:33 PM

todaee is th dae to SLACK!!finally..after a week of training..somemore still need to study after training!?wakakakak..im so bored now pls..eaating porridgee...sigh..sianded!!th whole week no one jio me out sia..then i also lazy jio ppl out..hehe..now its alrdy 11.12 and both my mother and sister are still sleeping lyke pigs pls..i make so much noise then they still neh wake up...lyke wearing ear plug siol..thi deaf ppl..dunno what to do abot them lahs somebody give me something to do..hahaha..the whole house lyke under one spell sia!!everyone is sleeping..even th threee cats!!hahahha..they sleep until super cute siol..haha...sigh..nothing to say liaos..EXCEPT:IM GONNA SPEND TH DAY STONING!

;8:10 PM

wakakaka..farni siol todaee..we played against anderson b and c division..sadly,didnt get to play against th c div at all!!all was lyke against th b div..but they are farni yet sorta serios when playin!!haha..but todaee i damn blurr cans..i take ball step into th circle..everyone was lyke telling me..anderson center pass..anderson center pass..but i still blurr blurr stand there look at umpire!!haha,BETTER STILL!!i still tried throwing th ball thru th defenders legs to get it to tira..and OBVIOUSLY!!it didnt work cos th defender closed her legs and caught th ball!!i was lyke so stupid cans..haha..can becomes blurr queen liaos,todaeee..i so sotong-ish..haha,anws reached home damn late..so sad!and i was lyke alone..ahahahaha..sianded..so lets see..i need to smile more often!!dun let anyone know whether im reallly happy or just smiling on th outside!!(SAD!)haha,ohwells..at least i played quite differently!!and tmr no trainiing liaos!!so happie..whheeeeeeeeeeeeeets!and i thot i could have another chance at love again..

;6:00 AM

Wednesday, March 12, 2008

why am i so crazzy?i knew that it will never work..so why did i have to go ahead wid that stupid plan and get my heart broken all over again??im so stupidd..such an asshole..how i wish the die would arrive soon..i cannot let go..its so hard for me to move on wid life.omgg..so horrible!!smebody just grant me one simple wish and let me de pls..why do all of you keep whaing me to continue wid lyfe whn its totally useless for me to do so??maybe th problem is wid me..maybe i shud learn to control my emotions better..but it would be much easier for me to just lose th last thing i have..MY LYFE!!i have alrdy lost evrything in lyfe anws..so how much more hurt could i feel if i just lose th last thing i have in my heart??i thinik i wouldnt even feel anything pls..then ppl would tell me..hane you ever thought about what happens after you die??well,in fact,i actually have thought about it...nothing would matter to all off you anws..all of you at least have something to hold on to..be it that special someone or your own family..i wold love to be living for my family,but whats there to live for??NOTHING!!it has broken up into so many pieces that if i were to try to piece them back..i wouldnt even know where to start from..yeah..ive told myself never to cry again..so no one will know when im happy or sad..or better still feeling suicidal!!so that i could really reassure myself that its really tyme for me to leave this place..and maybe it would become a better place for every single one of you..so im desperately pleading all of you!!LET ME LEAVE THIS WORLD OF MISERY!!
AND SO I JUST KEPT EVERYONE OUT OF MY HEART

;8:21 PM

i stuppid siol todaeee..omggs!!!i ran in the rain and im feeling so cold rite nows..sad!!im going to become more sick then i am now pls..so sianded!!haha..but then he was lykeeh,you will fall sick one lehs!!haiyo!!why i saying this??i dun lyke him liao whats..anws hes attached!!!so i dun care..anws its seriously tyme for me to move on cans...todaee was lyke so boring!!but at the last moment..the last two schools play until damn cute sias..omggg!!haha.they were lyke cheering outside th courts so cute!!somemore they were lyke all small small size de..hahahaha..how i miss being in primary school!!then can see carel..khairuddin they all again..miss them so much..miss having fun during reccess not eatin at all..laughing..staying back to have somemore FUN!!its lyke so sad canss..sigh..how i wish i could go back intop tme..i could set everything rite then i wont hav to have to change so much..kor kor also will not become lyke one gangster..ANDD the Thing i miss most:HAVING A COMPLETE FAMILY!!yeah..anws!!!ILMA!!STOP CALLING ME HOT!COS IM NOT..HAHAHAHA

;2:06 AM

Tuesday, March 11, 2008

and you!dun act lyke one fucking good person cans..i so hate you to the core!!everytyme go out wid you be it alone,with kor and jie..you never gimme face..you treat it as if im transparent and ignore me all th way..you make me feel so useless..so in th first place..why bring me out??you wha mummy to feel bad is it..if i could just kill you there and there..i would have just done that..but you are lucky i didnt..one day..if you continue wid this fucked up act..i might just do that..IM WARNING YOU!!so you better watch out..i so hate you..whenever i need you pay thing for me you alwae no money..but at the same tyme..when kor ask you..you gib th money immediately..do you call that no money??OMGGG..im so going to kill you..but first i'd just kpkb you here..release everything if not im going to start holding aand knife and go and find you liaos..gerald pierce one liphole enuff alrdy..he pierce second one and you still not doing anything about it??and you stilll encourge him to pierce somemore?!let me ask you..what type of father are you??you really suck so much..i hate you so much..sometymes i wonder..why did you let mummy give birth to me in the end??you wanted her to abort me in the first place rites..you shud you have gona ahead and done that..then the family wuld still be intact..everyone would be happy..erld wont leave home..everything would be the same as a complete and happy family..ywah..nothing would be happening ryte now..and i would not be here having all th blame on me and i wwouldnt be here wondering why i existed in the world..omgg..how i wish i could give my lyfe to somebody who would cherish it much more then me..

;6:20 AM

wah lao..fuck sia..ask me go out suddenly to meet then reach there keep disappearing keep making me find you all..you know how fucked up it is or nots??so what if itds your birhday?!i wha kpkb you cannot ahs??whats the big idea??i really dun treat you as my brothe anymore alrdy whats!!leaviing home breaking up this family even more..you are such a fucker pls..ya..so what if im iin sports school?sow what if im not home five days a week??so you dun treat me as your sister alrdy??but just wha to tell you this..ask yourself!!do i have a choice whether i wha to go home or nots?!i don't!so what right do you have to say that..you are not being fair to me you know.. you alwae know how much i wanted a compplete family..yes..daddy left alrdy..so its only left four of us..im not close to you and jie anymore..but do you have to make me feel worse by leaving??so okayy..you left..but i alwae tried to help you whnever i had extra money,i would give it to you so you could eat..but what do you treat me as??a fucking person you can just put aside..after yoy dun need me to do anything anymore..im rite yeah?i'd rather not know you at all then have to argue wid you lyke that..iim sorry it was your birthday todae but yet i argued wid you agaiin..but what do you expect??i rushed all the way there then you send me on a wild goose chase..then end up you call me fucking insulting names..so yeah..maybe im being too emotional..but yeah..dun tell me you still dunno what type of person i am??well,maybe its my fault for not having spend more tyme wid you..but why is it that im alwae wrong ad you are alwae rites?!how i wish i could just give you a slap in th face to wake you up before its too late..i dun wha to see you goingt hwrong way you know..i staying in sports school although its hard for mee cos i du wha to have to go to a fucking school which changed my brother so much..do you understand how im feeling??if ever i have to go there..i would become a veh desperate person in wantiing ppl to have a bad impression on he school..its just not fair!!

;6:03 AM

Monday, March 10, 2008

i dunno why i suddenly feeling lyke this..but its lyke so whats lhs..why this things die die must happen to me de??cant give chance one is its?!make me

feel lyke one fuck siol..i keep telling myself not to do this to myself anymore..but can i??NO!!its not so easy to throw everything out of mymind..in my case!!!all of you keep telling me to forget it..but do you think its so easy??if you were in my shoes..i think it would not be easy for you also..so stop talking lyke it doesnt matter to you..ommgg,todaee is lyke so shiiitt cans??the friendlys all kena cancelled..then must train in school..sianded!!omiggosh!!im so fucked up now..i wha tuh change..but can i?

Labels: I LOVE YOU..SO PLS DON'T LEAVE ME

;6:47 AM

Sunday, March 9, 2008

im stuck at home wid nothing to do at all!!lyfes so boring nowadays..no excitment liao!!sigh,its only 11.24!!andim meeting tasneem at 1.30..omiggosh!!somebody gimme something to do cans..its lyke so whatthehell!!wha liao..yesterdae go buy food for family..sister come eat finish alrdy then start to kpkb me!!so fuck siol!!i neh do anything rites..so fed up just called her bitch slut..fuck!then now step good ask me off th music..she herself also do that but i neh say anything rites??whatt your problem??fuck siol,

;8:25 PM

Saturday, March 8, 2008

whatthehell..todaeee went to vfc..after lyke one plus years..so many ppl say i change alrdy!but so whats??i dknow but i dun care whats..this is th person i really wha to be..its not for you to decide the person i should be!!i wha put eye liner cannot ahs?/is people scared of me..not you rites??too bad lahs..i dun even give a damn about myself..so why you care so much??i dun wha anyone to care for me lahs!!

omigoosh..i dunno why am i doing this type of things pls..haha..sianded..i need someone to hold onto now..i cant stand the pain and the loneliness anymore..the feeling sucks..things at home are betther now..but somehow i have a feeling something is going to happen soon...sigh,I DONT KNOW WHAT IM DOING AT HOME SO EARLY!!

;10:17 PM

Friday, March 7, 2008

omgg..just one day at home and my lyfes a bore alrdy!!how to last one week siol..stone until cannot stone liao lorh,
Has he ever loved someone like that?
Does he know the pain,swallow up the heart?
Would he give everything for her?
Would he sacrifice his life?
Would he hold her forever and never let go?
Chorus:
The lonelyness hurts with every step.
loving you is so difficult.
The unattainabillity disposses my sleep.
But I can dream of you alltough.
And I never had the choice to decide,
never had the choice to give up.
I never asked to fall in love.I
need you to give my life a sence.
Please come to me!
Please come to me!
Please hold me tight!
I want you to know the meaning of love,
I want you to feel what I feel for you!(2x)
Do you know the meaning of love?
Has he ever suffered like that?
Does he know the tears out of Longing?
Would he stroke them away?
Would he take her in his arms?
Would he hold her forever and never let go?
Chorus:
Her life is like a prison,
she cant come out of this world.
his is perfect or does the appearence deceive?
His voice is the only thing that keeps her alive
and every stab in the heart.
She will prove it all who laugh about her
Theres nothing you cant do,
no way that you cant go.
I want you to know the meaning of love,
I want you to feel what I feel for you!(2x)
Do you know the meaning of love?
some random song i saw on the net..

Labels: lost and lonely

;6:32 PM

haha..im finally back from school..so sad semis didnt get to play at all..but at least got to play one quater for the finals..got first!!yeahh..now mustt train hard to get a place int the national team lehs..but veh scared i dun make it..haha..the west zone finals quite nice siol..mgs win first for both division somemore same score!!so lucky..haha..im so bored now..haha..i did one thing that i felt so pleased with myself..haha..i realised i was wrong and apologised to the team,noraida and mdm lee..i hope i wont repeat the same mistake again luhhs.if not i dunno what i would or could do alrdy!!!but sad thing is mr ramon keep wanting to talk to me:(:(..what did i do wrong siol??dunno lahs..so sian whas..i just wanna live!!anything wrong wid that..somebody take away my lyfe,

;2:35 AM

Saturday, March 1, 2008

i dunno whether iim crazy or whats..wid two post on the same day..stupid..just came back from watching a dance competition and i thot everthing would be okayy at home..guess i was wrong..i come baack the mother start saying what..i not go watch dance competition lahs..is ii go there smoke..excuse me!!what is your fucking problem??did i do anything to you..i merely just got out of your way and you are still not happy??do you wha me to get out of your lyfe forever first before you would be content??i seriously cant put up wid your nonsense anymore you know..i dun give a damn anymore..and in the first place..i never trusted you..so dont think so highly of yourself..anws..jayne if you reading this then dun let mummy see..im just letting out everything that ive kept inside for so long..

Labels: and if you open your eyes..yu'll see that something is wrong

;3:01 AM