FOUR YEARS TO FUCKING PASS SOON!
shoes!
more $$$
purple hair(or crazily coloured hair?)
complete happy family crazy friends another hoodie
more time to sleep or go out:p
shorts,shirts
wishes that wont come true;
-tongue piercing
-belly piercing(shouldn't have closed the other two)
-tattoo(o.0)}pretty pls?
-all my ear piercings back
-plus additional ear piercings
-lip piercing
-eyebrow piercing^^
-just to say happy
so lets just say maybe just one more post? haha.. at tasneem house now!! feels wierd not being at home yknow? but whos gonna care at this point of time? since everyone's asleep by now?
since im so bored.. let me talk about yesterday yeah? there wasnt any morning training but had to meet noraida at 8 in the morning?! ohweellls.. didnt finish any of my work actually.. rushed thru it but still presentable i guess? then skool-ed. then waited for tas.. then found out something before going back with her. not gonna tell anyone.:P baby went causeway too!!:D no more time to see him lor... cos he cannot go open house and got headache so never go.. sian ah!!! if not i go le sial.. ohwells~~ gonna go entertain tas alrdy ah!!:P ahaha; see you peeps soon yeah? miss you guys.. baby especially yknow; love you!<3
;9:46 AM
Friday, July 25, 2008
yeah..last day im gonna be posting before going to thailand. i hope everything goes well..i hope it will. i wish nothing would happen there.. i hope everyone will be heatlthy throughout.. i hope nothing will happen to the team.. everybody lets fight hard and not give up yeah? cos we can do this one. jiaoyou everyone:D good luck to the rest who are going too.. byebye blogger, byebye friends and byebye baby will miss you dear<3
;9:33 PM
BABY PORKY AND HIS KIND ACT OF TAKING A PLASTIC BAG? AWWWWW.. SWEET DARLING? :P
;4:50 AM
finally back from school.i feel like one asshole zombie right now..arghhhhhh!!!so tired.ohwells,im basically too tired to talk about what happened..wanna know,come talk to me lor..hahha!!!ohwells,
baby,i love you.<3
gonna miss you dear,
takecare yeah?:D
give you tight tight tight hugs when i come back
lovelovelovelovelovelovelovelove you planetloads;
babay porky!!:P
;4:39 AM
Saturday, July 19, 2008
lala..finally came back from kallang.won all the games in pesta sukan le..hahaha!!!then we played PIZZA!!i and kim finally played together!! i just put a random name see who can guess..haha!!!!ainsley you know.haha.shhhhhhhhh!! PORKY!!!
;7:49 AM
Friday, July 18, 2008
DOES IT REALLY WORK THIS WAY? DO OPPOSITES REALLY ATTRACT? a ramdom we thot of when we were in the room..
ohwells.. time to say about the week and the day. this week was boring in training and lessons. well..almost,except for freaking hell today training lor.keep falling,feeel so retarded, hahhahaah. monday had training with the under 14s. kim lee!!twinny,:D lovelovelovelove you lotslots!! i wanna be your roomie for the KL trip so badly!!:) ainsley..someone seems interested in you uh. ahahha,tuesday got dance lessons,learnt another few steps like damn wierd only. wednesday forgot what happened le. thursday sportsschoool and 17s and 14s got friendly, we were trying so hard to let them get a goal but then they keep making mistake and giving us back the ball lor.then i was like 'omggosh-ing' to myself.give them alrdy they still dun want lahs. so today is friday. got the p6 development programme thingy.draaaaaaaaggg until so long lahs. lunch athirah kena shocked until cry.relax lahs!!!:D bloodyhell.sit on bus one vomit.then got this stupid guy must come sit beside when got so many empty seats.i should have just vomited on him lahs.haha,then alight bus then walking back suddenly ppl call my name.end up is ariff,rahul,afiq those bunch of guys there.haha,long time never see them lo..haha!!and poking ppl is funfunfunfunfun!!except this person likes to laugh alot!!:P
GUESS WHAT I FEEL LIKE DOING NOW? i feel like posting some really paiseh paiseh pictures of somebody.. but ohwells.i wont.later this certain person come pokepokepoke!!!
;6:48 AM
Friday, July 11, 2008
so im stuck at home..blogging again and of course!!waiting for my food to come home.oh yeah!!:D theres nothing for me to do today and tmr!!!well,except for church of course!!my life like so routined come home eat do things sleep.next day wake up go church then go school.i need something or someone to add light into my life.its like so freaking boring now.listening to songs all day can really start boring me out soon if i dun get anything to do alrdy lahs.lalalalalalala..the kittens all kop-ed the sofa alrdy lo.so i gotta sit on this stupid chair.ohman,but guess what?they look like angels when they are sleeping but then when they wake up they act like devils.but i still gotta admit i love them.<3now>
;9:15 PM
lalala,just came back home.so there was this certain someone who kept laughing at me!!!:(this super duper meanie person!!!haha,should make you jealous rights!!haha,i can slack you cant!!:Dhaha,ohwells.today morning training was gy.to mr sofyan it was semi light training,but to our super poor and weak arms it was like torture.push up after push up after push up.then do core,then stretch.my most hated thing.i suck at it lahs!!!haha,then later go to the wall do some claf stretch.hold onto the wall then suddenly my fcuking elbow come make noise then so pain.like one asshole like that sial,i stretch!!:(then later school..lao shi spent dunno how long talking so didnt do much today.then science,went to another homeroom lahs.so sad lo,so hot!!!then english.got group present then do this Q and A thingy.mrs teo gave sweets!!coolio!!<3last> AINSLEY IS A RETARDED RAT!!:D
;3:06 AM
Tuesday, July 8, 2008
HEY KIMBERLY :D I finally found out what's wrong with the blog code! So I've edited it and put in the code you want! AND it works perfectly fine :} LIKE IT ANOT? (:
Kudos to Ainsley :D AINSLEY ROCK :D
;9:19 AM
Sunday, July 6, 2008
im gonna stay strong..
but its killing me,killing me so much..so much.
i dunno what to do alrdy.
i begging you,memories,pls fade away.
good ones too,fade away.
everything,i dun need you in my mind anymore,
its killing me so much,
and im trying to live without your care and concern,
cos i know with it,i'll never get over you.
i want you to be meant to me,
hurt me so much that i dun need to think about you anymore.
ohwells,anws.
someone from the skool general office just called me to tell me that they found my acess card there.
ahaha
so happy but then like so retarded uh me.
ohwells,
gonna collect it on tmr!!
yes,then i dun need take stairs or get stuck outside alrdy.
yesyesyesyes!!
im so damn freakign happy okay!!!!:D
ive been feeling so tired nowadays.
im not gonna emo over you anymore.
im gonna be happy.
im gonna be happy.
yes i will be!!:P
i can do without you,
or anything from you./
thank you,
;8:27 PM
[Verse 1:] My heart is beating fast My hands won't stop shaking I thought that we would last I thought that we would make it I guess I was wrong all along We were inseparable but apart we've grown
[Chorus:] So, Can you tell me what to do when all the feelings is gone When you look around your all alone cause all the right went wrong Tell me how you look into my face and say baby I can't stay What do you do when the love just fades away?
[Verse 2:] The situations ugly I miss the way you touch me Do u even want me anymore? Let me know... Cause I'm tryna to figure us out I don't wanna break up What's the use when there's nothing left
[Chorus:] Can you tell me what to do when all the feelings is gone When you look around your all alone cause all the right went wrong Tell me how you look into my face and say baby I can't stay What do you do when the love just fades away?
[Bridge:] Was this ever true? Did I ever love you? Baby we were caught up in the feeling Oh did you ever care for me cause if so then where'd it go? Are we giving up I need to know or are we holding on
[Chorus: x3] Can you tell me what to do when all the feelings is gone When you look around your all alone cause all the right went wrong Tell me how you look into my face and say baby I can't stay What do you do when the love just fades away?
finally ainsley came to church!!:D omgg. i love you RAT!! ahah, anws ainsley's the rat!! so cos today was youth day, the church gave all youths one big bar of chrunchie!!! haha,so nicenicenicenice!!!:P so went to eat duck rice.. ahha then korkor joined but by that time,i eat finish le. as usual,he at there talk cock uh. at there say, kim,this is rohaizad and this is derick. deirck wants your number. omgg, as if i will be bought by that joke uh. im not that retarded gerald!!! im not like you okay, then ainsley came my house. ohyeah,i had such a good time frightening her with the kittens okayyy.. her reaction damn funny uh, ahaha. then later she went home, so here i am blogging now. ahahaha.
i dunno why but my moods keep changing so quickly!! its like im telling myself, dun think of him.dun think of him. then i'll get sad. like,whats the problem with me now? this never happens okay. i know i will forget you,i know i will. but everything that i tried that worked last time, is not working now. and i really dunno why. this so damn fcuking frustrating. ive gotta keep on trying,i gotta. so yah, im telling myself not to look back. look into th future kim,everythings gonna be alright and you know that. thats how i should be thinking, i should be thinking positive. i promise myself,i swear... i'll never touch that blade again. no i wont touch that blade again. i know i shouldn,cos i really shouldnt.. you can do this kim,you can. jiayoujiayoujiayoujiayou!:D nothing will be able to hold you back.
when my friend asked whether i missed you,
i didnt answer.
i just closed my eyes and turned away,
then i whispered..
so much!!
;4:17 AM
Saturday, July 5, 2008
nothing's gonna stop me.i wanna fade away from reality..i dun want to have my life like last time again.worked so hard to get out of it i dun wanna be like that anymore.its so much to give up,you gave suggestions.yes,im listening.but it might have worked for you but not for me,ive tried it many times before.it just doesnt seem to work.it doesnt work at all.but i know i gotta stay strong,ive got no choice,i will walk forward,i wont look back at all,not anymore.i wont cry,i wont cry,not at all,not at all.i'll do it my way to forget.i really am listening to you,but i know that the suggestions you give might work for you,but i doesnt work for me.thats how it is,thats how it is.you dun really understand how i feel,after all.we are two different people from two different worlds.and i was a fool to think that it was possible,cos now i know.i was always wrong.brought myself into this shit.memories pls fade,fade away.i dun want you anymore.
thankyou for encouraging me,
thanks.
i'll get thru this,hopefully.
thank you.:D
cody,
;8:00 AM
and so i realised maybe i should just let go..i dun even know why im hurting myself this badly..im starting to question myself.whatthefuck am i doing still having you in my life?!im not even in yours anymore.one of your msg:'i never really got a chance to say a goodbye. Neither did i want to say a goodbye."fine,thats what im gonna use to forget you.everytime i think of you,i will rember this msg and force myself to forget you.i shall not do it the stupid way.no i will not.cos its also not right.so yeah,kim this is the way you should be doing things.and i will not have to approach you if ive got any problems cos i'll make sure you see that even though you are not in my life,my life is still perfectt.yes thats how its gonna be.so out of my life you go,but this perfect life still stays!!!but i will need MOTIVATION!!lots and lots of it,to overcome this person.so im saying sorry to anyone whom i will offend while forgetting.im really really very sorry.dun blame me!!this is how im gonna be after you are out of my life..
;5:11 AM
Friday, July 4, 2008
so now you have found somebody else alrdy.but i dun think i'll care much,cos afterall.to tell you the truth,i was using you to try and forget somebody else.yes,and im pretty sure that this person doesnt know it anything at all.i want to let him know that i really need him,but i still dun have the courage to tell him that.
all my friends say they are proud of me for letting you go,but if they just looked through the smiles and the laughter they would see that i am really dying more and more each day.
he's the only reason why i wake up in the morning and he doesn't know or care and that breaks my heart.and if he breaks my heart,then why do i still like him?
if i gave you enough pretty words, could you paint a picture of us that works?
and nothing's ever as it seems when all your dreams exist in memories.
when i'm lying in your arms,nothing else in this world matters.
a day without you is a day i wished i'd never live.
its really hard to move on especially if someone gets too close to your heart.
he made a scar that will never heal,causing me to shed a thousand tears.
this thing called 'life' is tearing me apart.especially my broken heart.
you tripped me up,and now i'm falling andfalling even more in love with you everyday.the problem?you don't even know i exist.
one time,i said to myself that i hated you.i tried to do it,but,everytime i see you.i always tell myself that i love you.
i hate your smile,your laugh and your cry because i know it's not for me.
because of you,my memories are worth keeping forever.
empty is nothing,and nothing is you.so i think i'll just sit here for a while.
my heart is in pain,but i still love you.
someone asked if i missed you,i didny answer i just closed my eyes and walked away.and then i whispered so much.
i tell myself that things will turn out to be alright.it will be alright.i try my best to ignore your beautiful face but i keep thinking about how you cared.
the one who broke you is the only one who can fix you.
i thought that after you left,i could go back to my normal life.but gguess what?i lost the ability to be able to wake up and tell myself to be happy.
how i wished you would come here and see all the things i really wanna say to you.but you just dun care,you just dun care.you never did.i wished that nothing ever happened,that i never talked to you.i want to return to the past where everything was fine.now i cant seem to forget you.nothing will be able to make me do that.
im finally at home!!:D anws,was supposed to go home with fareeez but end up he zhao-ed back first. so athirah called to tell me. so i tell her i accompany her lo then i got to see the things they were gonna send to mummy. ohwells,maths still A1.hhaha, athirah dad sent me to causeway. ahah finally im home and feeling so retarded for making myself fall again lahs. then best thing is i fall on my knee.damn it!!fcuking pain lahs. ohwell,i hope my ankle okay soon then can play 100%. anws,endin here for now!!:D byes~
