Tuesday, September 30, 2008

HAAPY CHILDRENS' DAY!(ithink,)
hmmmm..
andand annws im just wondering how life would turn out to be tmr.
tmr like going up to ms robin alrdy and somehow i'll miss everyone in whites '08!! :(:(:(:(:(
so sad so sad so sad so sad!
of course we'll be able to learn more when we move up but yeah,
i'll miss training with you guys,
the happy moments,we could laugh so much.
the tough moments the team went thru,
well.at least we got thru and understood each other more?
when we played games,it was so nice
to see everyone cheering each other on,
when we lost a match,
it was so comforting to see everyone encouraging eacch other,
cheering each other up.
i really would miss those times.
hopefully the time you all will move up would be soon enough,
then we will be able to play as a team again.
and by then,
everyone who have not played this year would be able to play:D:D:D
ohwells,
everyone jiayou jiayou for training alrights?
never give up no matter how hard and tiring it is,
push yourself and you'll see the results.
just so you know,
noraida cares for each and everyone of us no matter what,
she might scold and nag but al she wants it for us to improve alright:)
she just doesnt say and show it.
hmmmm.so i hope you juniors would not like,
be angry with her or anything,
ohwells.till here:D
i'll miss each and everyone of you..

;6:57 PM

i was borned to tell you iloveyou,
but im torn to do what i have to.

\
so go back school like abit the too boring alrdy lor :P:P
ahahhaa,
go back two days then come home.
then only kena from mother sial..
shouldnt have comed home..
no,i shouldnt have.
cos for now,i wanna be anywhere but here.
its too much for me..
really really to much.
what must i do to make you understand?
you never seem to care,
im not surprised that you dont;
dont tell me what to do anymore,
cos for all you know,
im not gonna listen to you anymore.
cos im sick and tired of pretneding..
and yknow,im not like you who just spills everything out.
as and when you want to,
i dun throw tempers at you,
i dun fucking hell do that!
but what do you treat me as?
a fcuked up kid who doesnt belong in this house right?!
yeahyeahyeah,
you want me to end up like gerald right?
and oh wow,
what a good mother you are..
you didnt care..
you didnt.
you still had the cheek to say servce you right/
let me tell you.
FUCK OFF!

sometimes its hurting so much yet i cant say anything..

what more can i do?

you never gave him a second chance.

neither will you ever give me one right?

thanks to you,

this family is seriously screwed now;

;6:39 AM

Saturday, September 27, 2008

just got back from a day with daddy,
meet him then go eat some damn chinese chinese fod.
decided to go bowling:P:P
andand it seems like i was doing fine until daddy came and anyhow tell me
to dunno do what then i keep going gutter:P
ahaha,
then later go eat again..
lalalalalalala..
hmmmmmmm..
then came back home alrdy.
thats all,THE END.

andand kim,
stay strong.
idk why this had to happen.
but pls dun cry,
hide your tears.
stay happy.
cos you know that you can do it,
pls.
and to all ppl out there,
this is just some sorry if i might scream and shout at you
this few days,
cos for all you know/
im just not in th mood to joke or fool around anymore..
i just lost th reason for me to say strong,
continue studying and playing sports.

;6:33 AM

Friday, September 26, 2008

"I'm All About You"
There's somethin' that
I've got to say
You're always with me
Even though, you're far away
Talkin to you on my cell
Just the sound of your voice
Makes my heart melt
Oh girl, well it's true
I'm all about you
I'm all about us
No, baby, you never have
To question my love
And every night
There's a new crowd
But it's always you
That I'm singing about
There is only one these words
Are going out to
Oh girl, I'm all about you
I know you worry sometimes,S
ome other girl will make me forget you're mine
There's not a doubt in this world
That anyone could take the
Place of my number one girl
It's true
I'm all about you
I'm all about us
No, baby, you never have
To question my love
And every night
There's a new crowd
But it's always you
That I'm singing about
There is only one these words
Are going out to
Oh girl, I'm all about you
When i close my eyes i can see you
It's like your right here
And this feeling's only gettin' stronger
You're with me everywhere
I'm all about you
I'm all about us
No, baby, you never have
To question my love
And every night
There's a new crowd
But it's always you
That I'm singing about
There is only one these words
Are goin' out to
Oh girl, I'm all about you
I'm all about you
I'm all about you
I'm all about you
I'm all about you....

;5:43 AM

so the day's screwed.
idk what to say anymore,
hmmmm..
one blog just one blog to tell you something..
i hope you get it yeah?
=============================================================================
got colours award thingy,
and someone just had to make fun of my height.
and yeah,
nothing else.
hmmm..
cant be bothered to type liaos:P

someone cheer me up pls.

;5:30 AM

Saturday, September 20, 2008

so today practically stoned at home the whole daay,
gonna do homework later on.
yeah,and guess what?
(ive been thinking about you,)
believe me or not,its up to you.
but all i can say;its true.
hmmm..yeah,

cos someday you'll know how i feel about you.
how much you mean to me,
dun turn round and walk away,
cos it'll hurt hell loads.

hmmmm..life has been a bore.
lalalala~!
hmmmmm.
i feel like such a fool..
but ohnevermind,
can someone telll me whats going on?
what i should do?

imy,

;3:45 AM

Friday, September 19, 2008

and im wondering if i could turn back time.
fix it.
i wanna scream out,would you listen to me,
hold me when i cry,
and tell me you love me,

cos one day,
you'll come to realise that im not worthy of you.

;6:08 AM

lifes a bore!!!
imy,i really do.
iwantyou;
you know that,

no matter what happens,
you;ll always be my boo.

;6:08 AM

Monday, September 15, 2008

boring sia in imac lab now..

arghhhhh!!

and sometimes.i just wished i didnt click on something.

alalalalalalalalalalalal!!!

FARAH beside me now!!!:D:D:D

ahahahaaaha..

alaalalalal!!

ohwells,'lifes boring..

someone pls entertain me!!

;9:58 PM

Saturday, September 13, 2008

bloody hell!!
its so early in the morning and im here posting!!
wow!!:P
hmmm..
yeah..cos went for that chinese thingy then just came back,.
and yeah,im so retarded i seriously forgot about the whole thing..sheeeeeesh!
and somehow im getting so affected by whats happening,
im really getting really confused about what i should do.
i dunno what i should do,or whether hes okay alrdy or not?
sighsighsighsighsighsighsigh,
=============================================================================
kim!stop thinking about that pls!!
hmmm..yeah.
so today was a real fun day:P
went to the chinese thingy again..
aahahaha!!
didnt really understand everything,
and yeah.
some ass like lin dang.just had to be making fun of me.
so somehow,
i was entertained by him
then they went mos burger so i and george wanted to go home.
and guess what?
lin dang called george to go back got some important thingy,
yeah.so went back.
turned out to be something stupid.(as expectedly lor_)
hmmmmm..
so ended up waiting for scott to finish his food then zhao-ed back with him.
hmmmm..
had a good time talking to you on the way back man:P
aahahaha!
so thats all for now,
i wanna go sleep liaos..
cos got church tmr!!
haha!!
so bye world,
and bye troubles.(sigh,)

;9:48 AM

Thursday, September 11, 2008

iwantedyou-ina

lately i've been thinking about what i can do

i've been stressing to fall back in love with you

but i can't go on this way,i've got to stop it babe

you've been wonderful in all that you can be

but it hurts when you say that you understand me

so believe me i,i am sorry, i,i am sorry,i ,i

i wanted you to be there when i fall

i wanted you to see me through it all

i wanted you to be the one i love

i wanted you,i wanted you

i wanted you to hold me in my sleep

i wanted you to show me what i need

i wanted you to know just how down deep

i wanted you,i wanted you

i've been pushing hard to open up the door.

trying to take us back to where we were before

but i'm done

i just can't do it anymore

'cuz we can't be mended,

so let's stop pretending now.

we've beemn walking around in circles for some time

and i think we should head for the finish line

so believe me i,i am sorry

i am sorry

i ,i

i wanted you to be there when i fall

i wanted you to see me through it all

i wanted you to be the one i loved

i wanted you,i wanted you

i wanted you to hold me in my sleep

i wanted you to show me what i need

i wanted you to know just how down deep

i wanted you.i wanted you

i,i..i'm so sorry baby

but i,i..i gotta pack up and leave

but i,i'll always remember how we came close

..to being how i wanted to be

i wanted you baby

i wanted you

i wanted you to be there when i fall

i wanted you to see me through it all

i wanted you to be the one i loved

i wanted you.i wanted you

i wanted you to hold me in my sleep

i wanted you to show me what i need

i wanted you to know just how down deep

i wanted you,i wanted you

===========================================================================

hmmm..

yeah.
firstly,
i
wanna
say
sorry
to
this
one
guy,

hey!im really sorry for whatever that happened yesterday,
no one knew and no one wanted that to happen,(hopefully),
yeah,i really really hope that you would become the
happy guy you once were,before anything happened.
yeah,and hopefully,kick me out of your life?
i dun belong there aites?
so well,takecare always!
goodnights and sweetdrreams of so much more in advance:P
stay happy always alright?

===========================================================================

ohwells,this few days have been rather sucky,

yeah,and some certain things just had to happen;

sighsighsighsighsighsighsighsighsighsighsighsighsighsigh!!

i dunno what to do anymore.

i feel so stupid,so lousy.arghhhhhhh!!!!!!!

yeah,

ohwells,

yesterday same things happened as tuesday

lazy to type.

and yeah,

today's another day for me to stone like hell

and watch my kittens fight!!:P

lalalala!!if any of you free come entertain me alrights?

ahahaha!!

thats all for now.

ahaha!

:D:D:DD:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D

;9:02 PM

Wednesday, September 10, 2008

last post of this long sian-nishh day.. :P
hmmmm..
went with mummy to go buy house thingys..wl.
shheeesh!shan't say anything about it yo!
lalalalalala!!
somebody tell me to go sleep early pls..
wl...
yesterdaay got $%^&*^%$#%& cramps.
damn *&#@-ing pain sial!!
arghhhhhhh!!
then dunno what happen..
suddenly vomit..BLEH!
hmmmm..
so yeahh..another crappish post cos
my life's really a bore when i dun go out.

;5:30 AM

Tuesday, September 9, 2008

the stupid kind of pictures this guy takes:P

♥BABY !!!

hahahahahaha..

lalalalalalalala..

ive finally found something to do yo!:P

lala,another of my {random} post:P

hmmmm..

like me be an asshole for awhile aites?

hmmmm..

this person is:

-caring

-sweet

-adorable

-one good deed{help me take plastivc bag at macs}:P

-got manymany others la,

dun want say le,

later he somethin-somethin-somethin

so its FOR ME TO KNOW AND FOR YOU TO FIND OUT!

ive got nothing to do at all this few days.

oh-my-gawd!

how i hate holidays!

waste-of-my-time~

lala!im thinking of someone;hmmm..

he rocks my socks!!

♥lovehim:P

;11:59 PM

lalala..stuck at home the whole day again/.
sian ah sian ah sian ah!
hmmm..tmr gotta send grandpa to hospitqal again.
ohwells,
hope i still remember the way to walk to the clinic,
and how to walk out;
later lost i die sial!:P
hmmmmm..someone entertain me lehs!
life's so freaking boring sial!
hmmmm..and you still dun understand what im trying to say right?
sigh;nevermind.i give up,
she come home only start scolding alrdy,
im seriously wondering what i did to her la sia.
hmmmm!
the end of this stupid post bahs.
{out of randomness}

yeah,and ainsley,
im not gonna wait to go with you pierce liaos:P
hahahhahaha;
i pierce le,the gun sound like abit the loud ah:P
ahaha!

♥iloveyou;<3
♥and im missing you too baby :(:(

;11:34 PM

back to bloggin again..bloody hell!!
nevermind.
yeah,and it seems like everyone's so happy?
hmmmm..yeah.
and baby,im sorry for just now aites?
hmmmm..forget whatever i said.
i'll go home alright?
dun want you to worry...
hmmm..
i dunno lahs.but i dun wanna be back home.
i used to like coming home..
but now,its like everything's getting screwed up.
sigh...maybe one day i'll know the answer?
i wanna be somewhere that i dun have to worry about anything at all.
i wanna focus on my studies and sports..
and not have to think about this stupid family.
hmmm..nevermind,
was supposed to go play golf again today.
but who cares?
hahahahaa!!
my finger still pain la sia,
stupid gerald nearly got me to released the stupid club and send it flying down.//
lucky it didnt lo.:P
yeah,so basically this is my life.
I EAT:I PLAY:I SLEEP
could life get anymore boring?

yeah,so if one day you turn back and wonder why im not there?

remember,you were the one who chased me out of your life,

and hurt me in the process.

so dont pity yourself,cos guess what?

im not fcuking gonna waste my bloody time on you anymore.

ive tried so hard to get back all together,

but you just pushed me away,

what more do you want to do to me?

i give up,im not gonna care anymore.

cos i realised..

somethings arent worth crying over for,

especially if the thing is YOU!

WHO WAS THE ONE WHO TOLD ME THAT EVERYTHING WAS POSSIBLE?

-you can only push away a girl for so long until she walks out of your life on her own.so

be careful and make sure this is what you really want because once she turns

around,she's not coming back.-

{how many times must i tell you that nothing's ever gonna be okay no matter how many times you tell me that everythings gonna be okay?}

;3:41 AM

and im feeling like some asshole now..sigh;
but nevermind/.
so basically.the day started with
-me waking up to brush teeth(of course!!)
-then bathed.
-go out find taxi,fetch grandpa to hospital.
-zhao-ed to school(see so guai:P_)
__actuall go there see noraida and the team,
and to meet baby one lahs__
haha!
-then go causeway eat;
hmmmmm..saw hong ting and someone else there:P
ohwells.

{im just sorry for whatever ive becomed or whatever}

[i never meant to do that alright?}

-pls forgive me-

__falalalala__

Labels: and i think we should head for the finish line;

;2:26 AM

Monday, September 8, 2008

im still thinking about yesterday..what i saw..
eeeeeeeeeeeeyerr!!
there were to guys kissing openly lahs.
then walk off and hold hands still.
why is it still freaking me out?!
omgg..

;4:00 AM

Sunday, September 7, 2008

1.How old will you be in five years?
♥19 years old?
2.Who did you spend at least three hours with yesterday?
♥baby!!!<3
3. How tall are you?
♥hmmm..short ah!! 160cm -.-(taller then szelin!!)
4. What do you look forward to most in the next six weeks?
♥ii dunno..looking forward to nothing.
5. What's the last movie you watched?
♥make it happen(nice sia)
6. Who was the last person you called?
♥the last person..ermms.jayne,last night.
7. Who was the last person to call you?
♥jayne,asked what food she wanted.
8. Who was the last person to text you?
♥baby<3
9. Do you prefer to call or text?
♥both.can talk to baby okay liaos. :P
10. Do you have any pets?
♥yupps.:D 4 kittens one cat :P
[WHERE IS QUESTION 11?!]
12. Are your parents married?
♥hmmm..i dunno what it called now. the big D!
[THIS QUIZ SUCKS!!WHERES 13 AND14?ARGHHH!!]
15. What planet do you like?
♥planet earth:P
16. What are you wearing right now?
♥hmm..blue shirt long pants(its cold)
17. What is your favorite christmas song?
♥not any of them.not interested,
18. Where is your favorite place to be?
♥anywhere but home.
19. Where is your least favorite place to be?
♥home of course!!
20. Where would you go right now if you could go anywhere?
♥run away from this place i hate so much,
23. What did you fear was going to get you at night as a child?
♥nothing..
24. Who was the last person that really made you laugh?
♥i forgot.baby?
25. How many TVs do you have in your house?
♥two?one in the living room,one in grandpa's room
26. How big is your bed?
♥dont ask.i dunno.
27. Do you have a laptop or desktop computer?
♥com long ago spoil.using lappy!!
28. Do you sleep with or without clothes on?
♥a big big big shirt only usually/
[BLOODY HELL!!29 GONE?]
30. How many pillows do you sleep with?
♥two.
31. What is your favorite season?
♥singapore got season one mehs?
32. What do you like about summer?
♥-.-
33. What do you like about winter?
♥idiot q.
34. What do you like about the fall?
♥i only know fall by ina.not the stupid season
35. What do you like about spring?
♥(*%^#$@&*^&%&*^&
36. How many states have you lived in?
♥i dun even know exactly what are states :P
37. How many cities/towns have you lived in?
♥one uh
38. Do you prefer shoes, socks, or bare feet?
♥shoes.better still,slippers
39. Do you like wearing jeans?
♥only if you mean skinny jeans..
40. What was the last thing you ate?
♥chicken rice?
41. What is your favorite restaurant?
♥hog's breathe
42. Longest car trip?
♥why would i bother,cant ever sit for 1 hhour:P
43. What's your favorite kind of ice cream?
♥chocolate chip cookie dough
44. What is your favorite kind of soup?
♥not a fan of soup.
45. What kind of jelly do you like on your PB & J sandwich?
♥anything edible:P
46. Do you like Chinese food?
♥im sick of it!
47. Do you like coffee?
♥once in a while..
48. How many glasses of water, a day, do you drink on average?
♥depends on my mood.
49. What do you drink in the morning?
♥hmmm.nothing?
50. Would you rather sleep with someone else or alone?
♥depends on the weather and whose the person.
51. Do you sleep on a certain side of the bed?
♥most of the time,unless im damn tired
52. Do you know how to play poker?
♥nopes..
53. Do you like to cuddle?
♥maybemaybe..
54. Have you ever been to Canada?
♥nopes..
55. Do you have an addictive personality?
♥how would i know?
56. Do you eat out or at home more often?
♥hmmm..eat out most of my life.
57. What is your favorite cheese?
♥i dunno and i dun care.
58. Do you know anyone with the same birthday as you?
♥some ppl i dun bother mentioning,
59. Do you want kids?
♥i want two:D
60. Do you speak any other languages?
♥chinese,i suck at it.
61. Have you ever gotten stitches?
♥nopes..and dun want them.
62. Have you ever ridden in an ambulance?
♥i wanna try,although dun wanna be the perosn lying down :P
63. Do you prefer an ocean or a pool?
♥hmmm..the pool
64. Do you prefer a window seat or an aisle seat?
♥window seat.i sleep most of the time,.
65. Do you know how to drive stick?
♥whatthehell is that?
66. What is your favorite thing to spend money on?
♥i dunno,i just spend.
67. Do you wear any jewelry?
♥why would i and why should i?
68. What is your favorite TV show?
♥dun watch it that often..
69. Can you roll your tongue?
♥yerps..haha!
70. Who is the funniest person you know?
♥im not sure..
71. Do you sleep with stuffed animals?
♥a froq,my shitty,piglet,spongebob,and a dog:P
72. What is the main ring tone on your phone?
♥usher and alicia key,my boo(i know its old)
73. Do you still have clothes from when you were little?
♥not at all.
74. What red object is closest to you right now?
♥the hat of my tweety bird oft toy on the tv:P
76. Do you sleep with your closet doors open or closed?
♥err.closed?
77. Would you rather be attacked by a big bear or a swarm of bees?
♥can the answer be none of the above?
78. would you rather fight a chimp or a badger?
♥dun wanna fight pls,
79. What do you dip a chicken nugget in?
♥curry suace from macs?
[NUMBER 80!!]
81. Can you change the oil on a car?
♥i dun evern know how to work a car.
82. Have you ever gotten a speeding ticket?
♥nopes.see so guai!
83. Have you ever run out of gas?
♥got driver kena before mehs?
84. What is your usual bedtime?
♥hmmm..depends on my mood.
85. What was the last book you read?
♥errr...reader's digest?
86. Do you read the newspaper?
♥yerps..straits time and the newpaper:p
87. Do you have any magazine subscriptions?
♥dunno dun care,
88. Do you still sleep with the lights?
♥this few days in hostel,yes,.
89. Do you watch soap operas?
♥whats that?haha!
90. Do you dance in the car?
♥err.how to ah?
91. What was the last note you scribbled on a piece of paper?
♥hmmm.im not sure.
[QUESTIONS MISSING AGAIN!!]
94. What is your favorite candle scent?
♥have never used one before//
95. What is your favorite board game?
♥i lead a boring life.no board games for me.
96. How would you describe pop up pirate or buckaroo as a board game?
♥nno idea whats that.
97. When was the last time you attended church?
♥yesterday?
98. Which one of your friends have you known the longest?
♥i dunno..hahaha!
99. What is the longest you have ever camped out in a tent?
♥about one day or two days?i dunno..hahha!
100. Did you realize you just completed a 100 question survey?
♥it wasnt exactly 1oo okay?so many missing,im still bored..

and well,im feeling damn bored at home.sigh,ive got nothing to do.tmr gotta send grandpa to the hospital,gotta miss training.such a shitty feeling to have to miss training.wl,so little training time left with the juniors la.sigh,does this always have to happen.sighs,then after tha then zhao to causeway lo,maybemaybe.hmmm.go meet people.cos who wants to come home to a shitty house like that.today there was supposed to be a party at elizabeth house,and yeah.im sorry.im not going.im not feeling that well,and im not in the bset of moods now.sigh,did i do something wrong?did i?can someone pls tell me.or maybe you could tell me,its scaring me,the way that you're talking now.im sorry if i did anything wrong.i really dun mean it at all aites?
anyone as bored as me,call me ah :P
hmmm..
thats all for now.

;10:23 PM

finally home..
yesterday night talked on the phone with ♥. :D
then went to sleep..
woke up at 845.
bathed wash face brushh teeth everything then zhao-ed.
church-ed.
then daddy sent the b!tched to vivo cos on the way,,
then went to pastamania to makan:D:D
daddy treat..ainsley!!
ahaha!
then walked around..
finally daddy zhao-ed..
so can go meet ♥baby; :D
then go buy movie ticket:P
watched make it happen..
so ainsley and someone else were beside us..
ahaha!!
then walked around while ainsley did her homework..
hmmm..
then went to eat.s
shiok!!
then went home liaos:(:(:(:(

omgg..
♥baby..
so sorry..
why never tell me you knew someone would have seen?
i just feel very bad la..
im sorry,really sorry.

as for this fucked up family i have,
i dun give a fucking shit about it anymore.
kicking it out of my life.
this house is onnly gonna be a place for me to sleep/
leave me alone to train and study properly..

;7:34 AM

Saturday, September 6, 2008

finally posting after so long..
im so lazy to post,tired and sick too.
haiz,
anws.
the past week has been boring..
nations cup just ended.
sabo-ed szelin to play game and she got a alarm clock okay!!
ahaha.
yeah.the hols are here.
we only had two trainings but yeah,i dun get to go.
gotta send grandpa to the hospital,sigh
it just has got to be on the training days,,
tsktskk!
anws..
tmr gonna go xchurch!!
can relax relax finally man.
ive got no more enrgy lehs.
gonna go sleep.
byebye!!

and yeah,its the hols alrdy.
i dun get to see you;
sigh.
but nevermind.
i miss you so so much,
love you baby<3

Alright (Yeah)
Wandering the streets in a world underneath it all
But nothing seems to be
Nothing tastes as sweet as what I can't have
Like you and the way that you're twisting your hair round your finger
But tonight I'm not afraid to tell you
What I feel about you
Oh I'm gonna muster every ounce of confidence I have
And cannonball into the water
I'm gonna muster every ounce of confidence I have
For you I will, for you I will
Forgive me if I st-stutter
From all of the clutter in my head
Cause I could fall asleep in those eyes
Like a water bed
Do I seem familiar
I've crossed you in hallways a thousand times
No more camouflage I want to be exposed
And not be afraid to fall
Oh I'm gonna muster every ounce of confidence I have
And cannonball into the waterI'm gonna muster every ounce of confidence I have
For you I will
You always want what you can’t have
But I've got to tryI'm gonna muster every ounce of confidence I have
For you I will, for you I will, for you ...
If I could dim the lights in the mall
And create a moon, I would
Shout out your name so it echoes in every room
That's what I'd do
That's what I'd do
That's what I'd do
To get through to you yeah
Oh I'm gonna muster every ounce of confidence I have
And cannonball into the water
I'm gonna muster every ounce of confidence I have
For you I will
You always want what you can’t have
But I've got to try
I'm gonna muster every ounce of confidence I have
For you I will, for you I will, for you I will, for you I will

teddy geiger-for you i will

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