Friday, October 31, 2008

gonna have to study at home for the week manzxzxzx!!
siaaaaaaaan-ness!!
got math first then science nest week,,
tuesay and friday respectively..
zomg-ess!!
so boring one sia..
and ive got no mood to study now sia,,
some [social worker] is here now..
i miss my bro..
sigh.
nevermind.
baby iloveyou;<3
i'll miss you on the 12 of november?

;7:33 PM

back from another tiring weekk...
i swear,
i screwed up chinese la..
wl.
study two weeks then go in suddenly all forget..
sian.wwhatever...
need t bring dress next weekk..
must must remember!!:P
ahaahhaha.
lalallalaa.
and yeah.
sometimes its better to keep your mouth shut yknow?
better then to say some stupid things out.
oh whatever,
dun spoil my mood.

;7:23 AM

Wednesday, October 29, 2008

fuck you la cb!!
think you so big ah?
bloody idiot!!
backstab backstab backstab ppl only,
fuck you la!!
who do you think you are?.
whatever uh,

hmmmm..
got some person called cody beside me now sia,
so hardworking sial.o.0
hahha.
he doing his work sia.
then i at here slacking:P:P
:(:(:(:(:(
hahahaa,
whatever la.
im damn bored and damn lame:P
ahahahha,
someone pls entertain me!!!!

you bloody fcuking b!tch!
im not gonna care about you anymore!!
i dun care how you treat me,
what do you treat me as,
cos i dun wanna..nevermind.

still i said sorry;

Labels: 23 more days yozxzxzxzxzxzxz

;5:06 AM

Monday, October 27, 2008

and cos i never meant for things to be this way,

im sorry mum.

for all i've done..

but this time,

i seriously do not know what i have i done to you this time,

why are you like that?

you're getting more and more vicious

hitting me at my weakest points,

what have i done?

i really dun want things to be this way anymore,

was there ever a happy us?

or have you been blaming me ever since i was born?

could you just tell me?

if you hate me,

i'm ever-ready to walk out of the house,

walk out of your life.

i don't mind/

as long as that doesn't cause you any misery//

life's still as boring and..

nevermind.

i still hate myself as much as before..

byes!

Labels: 24 more days.

;10:05 PM

Sunday, October 26, 2008

another day has passed,
ahaha.
finally.so slow one sia:P
ahahaa
practically did nothing..
aahhahaha
i dun wanna go tmr.
if not i dun want go tuesday morning training!!
ahahha
so tired ah like tht:P
agaaahaha
whatever whateever whatever!!
ahaahaha
byebye!!
im tired``

;5:30 AM

Saturday, October 25, 2008

imbored at home~~~!!!!
theres nothing to do here,
except to shout to argue and everything that i dun wanna do,
i wana go walk walk walk outside now..
but some b!tch doesnt allow,
whats her prob?!
hmmm.
oh whatever,
supposed to be studying now,
but lke dun have the mood to only,
i swear idw to flunk my chinese paper 2 and overall one sia,
must pass must pass!!

;12:39 AM

Friday, October 24, 2008

heyheyhey!!!
back for the week and im feeling so tired..
and something caught my eye when ii was gonna opening th door..
andfuck that person who did tha\t.
hmmm.
this whole week couldnt really train..'
keep feeling pain in my knees..
ohyeah.
then nevermind,
the nz ppl came..
and yeah.
im not hosting..
monday is holiday..
but still need go around.
sheeesh!
thats basically all.
im sick and tired of seeing and knowing things that i dont wanna know.
why tell me?!
nevermind nevermind.
i shall not say anything here.
my main motive is to stay happy right?(my fcuking foot!)
byebyes!

;6:41 AM

Monday, October 20, 2008

hey yo!

its official,

i ain't gnna care no longer..

do wht the fcuk you want.

you think i care?!

it ain't my prob no longer..

you go find money yourself..

you think i your fucking what la sia?

cb.

you money maker or your fcuking daugther?!

cbcbcbcbcbcbcbcb!!

go suck cock la.

cnat be bothered cant be bothered cant be bothered la!

you think i like being in this house ah b!tch!

of course not la

wl.

FUCK OFF YOZXZXZXZX!!

;10:50 PM

Sunday, October 19, 2008

SHERMAINE!!
you take so long so recover from your porrk porkk!!
ahahahhaa,in class so boring la.
like damn quiet only sial,:(:(
imy la!!quick quick recover my dear:P
ahahahah!
and yeah,going back school soon:P
andand i miss baby so much:(
timw quick quick pass ah!!
then can see him le..
just got my allowance and im broke..
need to pay mummy my bills..
sheeesh!!
suck cock la!
everytime ask me pay myself one..
:( oh whatever..
two more years ah,dearest mummy.
wait and see what i'll do yozxzxzxzxzx!!
you go suck cock la!

;2:22 AM

Saturday, October 18, 2008

zomgzxzx!!
study so much for chinese,
will i be able to pass tmr?
i desperately want to pass and need to pass,
if not i think i fail overall alrdy sia:(:(:(
cannot cannot cannot!!
xcannot fail!!
alamak!tmr church must study like hell,
come back home study somemore..
go back school study somemore!!
sheeeesh,study until i forgot to do my stretches!!
die la sia,
hmmm.nevermind.
i pray that everythings gonna be alright,
that i will be able to pass la sia:P
ahaha
pls pls pls..
lalala!!
iloveyou baby,<3
you cutest sweetest loveliest hottest most adorable~!!
admit admit hor,:P
ahaha.
imy,

;8:14 AM

Friday, October 17, 2008

finally back home for the weekend,
sheeesh.
and to think i wanted to time to slow down.
so yeah,
nothing to do now.
imy baby.
lalalala,
andand im random..

just wondering..
have you read my other blog?
hmmmm.
ive got nothing much to say,
cant say anything.

;1:57 AM

Monday, October 13, 2008

and yeah,

i ain't no more about this fucked up life,

like i said.

once i cry.control me.

if not,you ain't gonna see me no longer,

im sorry.

im giving up,

Labels: i swear, im set to kill

;10:43 PM

YOU ARE JUST ONE FUCKED UP B!TCH

IM WALKING OUT,FOUR MORE YEARS.

FOUR MORE YEARS.

YOU WONT SEE MY FACE IN THAT FUCKING HOUSE

ANYMORE!!

YOU DUN WANT ME THERE RIGHT,

CAUSING YOUR SON TO GOT O COURT

WOW.

WAT A CARING MOTHER.

I DUN CARE ANYMORE.

and all i ever wanted,

you took from me.

all the blame you put on me.

why still give birth to me?

to take all those blows.

like im your fucking dog?!

;10:25 PM

Saturday, October 11, 2008

do you realise what you are to me?
what you're always gonna be?
iloveyou,<3
everyone else will always be second best,
there will never be another you.<3

[im looking for a thug,
a true gangsta guy.
the one who looks all tough.
yet won't ever make me cry.
you should be my baby,
the one that understands,
and even when he's boys are there,
he's still like...
"wanna hold ma hand?"]

a girl and a guy can be just friends,
but at one point,
they will fall for each other,

maybe temporarily,
maybe at the wrong time,
maybe too late,
or maybe forever.

baby,i love love love love you.
thanks for being there for me yyeah?
walking thru this tough time with me,
yknow too,that 13th october is coming in two days right/.
apologise to you first,
if i become damn f*cked up,
cos idk whether i'll be able to know whats gonna happen.
hmmmm./
idk what i would have done if it weren't for you.
a possible thing was that-i wouldnt be here blogging anymore.
yknow what i wanted to do right?
taking a knife and stab myself,
this selfish thing i wanted to do.
hey.but i wont do that anymore,
that thought wont enter my mind anymore.
cos with you around baby,
i feel so much better.
imy,

;4:59 AM

(verse one)
I don't wanna talk about it
It makes me wanna cry
everytime i pour out my emotions
I feel emptier inside
I don't know how to play it like
i'm not in love with you,
but I'll try
even though i do...still
(Chorus)
Miss you just like the air that I breathe
I need you with me
I'm not gonna lie
I can't imagine my life without you
but I suppose I will survive
(verse two)
I'm not gonna play myself
every time my cell rings
checkin for your name
I promise that I'll never tell you how I feel
cuz I know that you don't feel the same
did you think that you could hurt me so
I just gotta let you go
every time i find myself alone
ooooh i
(Chorus)
Miss you
just like the air that I breathe
I need you with me
I'm not gonna lie
I can't imagine my life without you
but I suppose I will survive
(bridge)
Don't try to explain why you're love's changed boy
you really broke my heart this time
i won't let it take away my pride
or Who I have inside
boy im sewed between everything
how could i feel nothing
woulda done anything if it would mean
i would make you love me
you're the one i need
but you still believe
we can never be...
(Chorus) and i Miss you
more than air that I breathe
I need you with me
I'm not gonna lie
and I can't imagine myself without you
but I suppose I will survive
I'll be fine...
don't worry about me
(whisper)
..I'll be okie

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=f0LDU4-SeQM

;4:13 AM

and i just realised that memories do come back once in a while.
ans so there i was just reading blogs and then linked to this one particular person's blog,yeah.
read it and so on and so forth,
but guess what?
something i saw just made me think back..sigh/
i _ _ _ _/ _ _ _ _ _ _ ?
yeah,maybe i do,
but i cant do anything about it anymore can i?
im in the present now,and
theres no going back to the past,can i?
sigh why does this has to happen?
i cant help but notice..
but im supposed to be happy now right?
kim,keep your mind clear.
don't think back anymore,
its just gonna hurt you more,
sigh.and to think,
i used to _ _ _ _ /_ _ _ so much.
sigh,why am i thinking of this now?
can just one picture trigger so much thoughts?
i caouldn't imagine myself without you,
but i suppose i will survive/
there's nothing left for me to do now,
just staring at the ceiling will do.

if only things could go back to normal.
just like last time.last year?

;3:59 AM

Friday, October 10, 2008

IVE GOT SOME DAMN FUUCKING LOUD MOTHER NAGGING BEHIND ME YO!
DAMN DAMN DAMN DAMN DAMN DAMN DAMN DAMN DANM DAMN IT!
lalallala,so life still is boring.
theres' no time for tears,im just sitting here planning my revenge.
all it'll take is just one more fucking look.
and i'll snap.
but that's justt exactly what you want right?
so no,i won't do just that,
i'll hold back,just hold back.
you'll know what i mean won't you?
when it's time for me to release all the anger,
and there you;ll have it!
one bloody fcuking hell of a time yozxzxzx!
you suck b!tch,i dun care.

andand,

i didnt mean th pain.

neither did i need it.

don't act like some good mother,

cos you're not alright?

you couldn't even look me in the eye,

you looked away.

jaynes's all you're thinking about now right.

and right now,

you know how i feel.

i dun need to say anything no longer..

but guess what?

times running out for you,

i don't have that kind of patience anymore.

you just seem to be driving me out of the house,

aren't you?

ive got no more reason to stay in this fucking house.

in four years,four years,

i'll be out of this fucking house.

and there you'll have it.

your wish has been granted.

so now,

im just gonna keep everything in,

no im not gonna show any sign of weakness anymore.

that kimberly you used to know as your daughter,

is gone.

forget it.

you'll never see her again.

she wont come back for you.

she won't/

cos it's just not worth it,

anymore.

;11:38 PM

cos i really do not know what i should be doing anymore,
yeah.im depending on one person to control,
i dun wanna break down and cry,not now,not ever.
but can i do it?
moday's coming...13th october.
will i be able to take it?
will i be able to know the results?
will he want to let me know,
will he let me know?
or should i say,
will he ever talk to me?
i wanna know whats gonna happen so badly,
it wasnt his fault.
it really wasnt,
so why is this happening to him now?
what ive feared the most is coming true now,
i dun want to know,i dun want to know.
things keep happening,why?
and no,that b!tch is not gonna affect me,
its near the end of the year,
let me do my very best both for my studies and sports..
icc?will i be able to play at the rate that i am going at?
i really work hard in my stretches...but,,
why is the total opposite happening?!
im getting tighter and tighter.
why?why?why?
i don't wanna know.
sigh,i'll just leave it at this.
and yo b!tch,better not come piss me off yo!
you might just get a slap yo?

;7:14 AM

and yeah,
si this week was like fucked up yozxzxzx!!
but let me tell ya,
who cares yo?
aint me,
hmmmmm..
so train train train.
swim like almost everyday exceept today:P
cos my good friend saved me from it sia:P
ahaha,
shiokshiok,hmmmmmmmm.
yarh,the end.

hey yo!
you think i gonna care about yall?
or should i say you?
i aint got anything against those two yeah?
dun know whats your fcuking prob,
what you havin against me yo?
blog about me all you want yeah,
i know you have the team,
and yall out there.
but guess what b!tch?
do whatever you want now,
but when the time comes,dun regret your actions.
cos you wont know whats up next for you,
let me fuck you up,i'll get you beaten up yo.
dun forget this manzxzxzx,
this aint about me,its about you.
i never wanted you to care,
or any of the others.dun assume,
wanna know something?
two can play in this game yozxzxzxz,
so what if you're taller or what,
i aint caring..
i'll make sure you'll never come across me,
i wont let you,i wont let you.
give me that look somemore ah,i dun mind,
cos yknow what?
you'll get it from me when the time comes yozxzxzxzx,
continue to be like one bloody suck up,fcuking b!tch yozxzxzx!!
be my guest,and this time,
things will get ugly with just one wrong move you maks,
aint gonna play it like last time,

;6:41 AM

Monday, October 6, 2008

and yeah,

i dont know what to do now.

im sorry,

i never wanted this to happen.

takecare always,

sucks sucks sucks having to feel this way,

if only things could go back to normal,

when there wasnt any complications

between me and you.

just so sorry,

ive ran out of words to show you how i feel,

yeah,

takecare;

;9:38 PM

Sunday, October 5, 2008

cos i seriously miss what i was able to do,
and yeah.i miss everything.
and most of all,
i miss this guy yo.
dun misunderstand or ask if you dont know.
i dun want him to get into any touble.
please god please.
keep him safe,keep him safe.
and yeah,
basically,life's screwed.sigh,
and i still refuse to say am injured,
cos im not.
im not im not im not!
sigh,
ohwhatever!!!
i wont fcuking hell care anymore lahs,
cos i really cant be bothered anymore.
take me out of the school for all i care,
just dun regret your decision.
when you see what i will become,
when im out of the school.
and,no.i wont regret doing what i will do,
cos im so sick and tired of you,
yelling at me to do things i do not want to do.
this is my life,dun live it for me.
who fucking cares if you're my mother or what?
cos yknow what?
i honestly do not care!!
and am not gonna listen to what you ask me to do anymore,
cos yknow what/.
its not worth it.
it really ain't.
idk what the fuck was my problem last time,
i listened to whatever you asked me to do,.
wow!!
i was such a jerk,and yo!
im sick of being that!
get out of my life you fucking B!TCH!

;2:32 AM


	kimberly lim learned how to make people explode using only the mind.
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;2:15 AM

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;2:14 AM

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;2:13 AM

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;2:11 AM

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;2:10 AM

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;2:09 AM

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;2:08 AM

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;2:07 AM

Saturday, October 4, 2008

and so im wondering,
what the fuck is happening to me lahs,
fuck fuck fuck knns!!
like after working my ass off for one month,
did beep test.
and yo,guess what i got?
a fucking 7.7 lahs!!!
wl,cbcbcbcbcb!!
from 10.1 i drop to 8.1 and now im at 7.7?!
whattheFUCK!!
whatthehell is wrong with me?
the more i train the lousier i get?
10.1>>i fucking hell didnt run for that one whole month.
8.1>i didnt run for that fucking short period of time.
7.7>>i worked my fucking ass off trying to improve.
whatthehell?!
hard work so doesnt pay off la!
wl,suck suck suck suck suck suck suck la!!!
now whatthehell am i supposed to be doing?
how to motivate myself to try to improve again?
wl,i so suck so much la!wl,
cb.
im like some fucked up kid lahs!!!
andand maybe i indeed am one!

;5:57 AM