FOUR YEARS TO FUCKING PASS SOON!
shoes!
more $$$
purple hair(or crazily coloured hair?)
complete happy family crazy friends another hoodie
more time to sleep or go out:p
shorts,shirts
wishes that wont come true;
-tongue piercing
-belly piercing(shouldn't have closed the other two)
-tattoo(o.0)}pretty pls?
-all my ear piercings back
-plus additional ear piercings
-lip piercing
-eyebrow piercing^^
-just to say happy
finally came back (: was actually contemplating to go stay at tampines for th weekends, but end up im at boon lay again -.- gosh. cant make up my mind. this whole week pass like extremely fast, had like three sleep in's , so shiok (: tuesday had 17s training. then wednesday had th swimming finals, me and fatin keep taking pictures :P all th retarded faces of hers (: thursday, which is today (: had 2.4 run. ended up in th toilet -.- ange also, alamak. then afternoon wanted to meet someone cute person, then end up principal say whole school got assembly, actually end at 220 like that. then that stupid mr kan come say must go do test straight after this, then cant meet liao. bub lucky after the test can meet you for a few minutes (:
just ate roti prata (: yeah yeah yeah! long time no eat (: i miss you, ): gahhh!
ps: im posting up th pictures you dun want me to soon :D wooooooooooooooooooooo!
;5:17 AM
Saturday, April 25, 2009
/played.
played against th aussie team today. but played against th junior team. lost by two, but ohwells. we're a new team (: ahahaha! played three of 15 mins. tired and aching everywhere, hate their boobs. take up so much space.
hate my mum, shan't talk about it to anyone (:
gah, tmr got another game. dunno whether i playing or not, yeah (: hope not sia, so tired.
ohwells hope you played well for today(: love you loads, take care alright? i miss you, ):
;6:29 AM
Friday, April 24, 2009
/drive hard to th ball.
keep re-offering.(:
so this week kinda bad ):
cry like one fuck la,
stupid mr ng, just had to open his stupid mouth.
gah, shan't say anymore.
sorry i broke my promise ):
i feeeeeeel mean ):
hmmm, so today was fun (:
actually can go home early but wanted to say back,
gave some excuse say i dun want go home :P
ooooops, at least im truthful :P
then went rec with shermaine and dear (:
then seat there talk to him and stone :p
then going back room time take pic (:
(look up! )
so yeah, then come home liao,
wanted to upload th picts but shermaine did it already (: thank you,
hmmmm.
got game on both saturday and sunday.
not sure playing which one/
driving hard and re-offering are my goals (:
ms robin's words! :D
gahh, i hope when im playing,
i still can remember, quoting from zhen,
"everyone's equal" & "have confidence"
bleh, so im tired and hungry,
super lazy to get up and go make noodles :P
and YOU!
iloveyou <3(:
thanks for cheering me up, and just being there (:
and HOR FUN XD!
thanks for those words of encouragement manzxzxzxzx!
beeeeeen so long since i last spoke to you,
bleh!
'concentration and determination'
;6:01 AM
Saturday, April 18, 2009
/leaving,
i never trained so fucking hard in my life before cos i wanted something so badly, and now, you want to pull me out of th school! ohwow, ive got nothing to say anymore. "i'll support you as long as you're in sports school" you said this to me just a few days before. and now you're like that, what a big fucking liar you are. you ask me to leave school go normal school, find work and pay everything myself right? you know what? im not going to. im not even going to bother to find a new school cos im not gonna studying anymore. i wont, i'll just become a useless person, isn't that what you see me as? if im your biggest problem? why did you , for goodness sake, decide to give birth to me? don't blame me for your mistake. and you know what? im sick of lying to daddy all th time for you, so that you can get more money. no i wont, im not going to do that anymore.
forget it you b!tch.
im letting go of everything if you take me out,
;7:02 PM
Friday, April 17, 2009
/could you ever make me feel worser then now?
so ya luh, got three games this week (: wowwheee! i sat on th bench for all three games (: isn't that shiok? (: warm up so hard and then i end up on th bench (: this year fourth, next year we'll make sure we play hard and get FIRST! (: no offence, but i seriously hate this team, its seriously not like a team at all. ohh, can be a team but maybe an eff-ed up one? then yesterday after training went running, run like some mad dog, shawallah, im just saying, i know i shouldn't go running after training, or in your words, over train. but i know that, ive been on th bench for so long, and its kinda boring me out, besides i knew i wouldn't play today (: moreever, i was just venting out frustration!
soyeah,today came home dunno what fucking tiime, walk in only kena pissed off by that stupid b!tch. damn fed up just walked out of th fucking house then went to sit under some random void deck. sorry baby, i didnt mean to do that, but i just dun feel like being at home at that point of time, next time i wont like that alrdy okay? (: sorry ):
tmr going out with jayne go watch seventeen again (: then sunday maybe going park with farah theyall then go watch movie (: i wished you could come, for now, i go back into my room and sleep everything away, (: besides, i promised myself not to show how i was feeling anymore (:
NATALIE KOH SZE YI! happy birthday dearest senior (: hope you enjoyed your day (: seriously sia, without you beside me during th game today i think i cannot take it sia, you were right, it'll be easier to manage if you knew you weren't in th team from th start (: ohwells, love you babe <3(:> we win th title back okay? (: heh, takecare, and god bless you (:
sometimes, its not about who you want me to be, but who i really am.
;8:40 AM
Saturday, April 11, 2009
/just another boring day.
so spent th whole day watching last time movies (: watched sleepover, a cinderella story, another cinderella story, now ten things i hate about you, and now wild child (: then got to find out about this nice nice songs (:
stuck - allister get over this until i feel like growing up so now i'm staying up all night cause i'm trying to understand why i feel like i've been stuck here forever
remember - gabriel mann remember where we are now, open your eyes and take it all in. remember where we are now this is where your life begins you feel like you're lost in the crowd watching life go on without you well baby it's your turn to shine everything's starting right here.
we close our eyes - allister we're on the healing path we're on a roller coaster ride that could never turn back and if you love me and if you really try to make the seconds count then we could close our eyes close our eyes and the world has turned around again close our eyes another year has come and gone
just that girl - drew seeley sometimes it feels like everybody wants something from me don't understand, i can only be one person, i want you to want me - save ferris i want you to want me i need you to need me and i'd love you to love me.
HEY YOU! love you! <3(:
;4:05 AM
Friday, April 10, 2009
/ ):
im fcuking pissed with people trying to come and chat with me, please you fucking dun even know me? I DO NOT KNOW YOU! and i dun intend to try and know you. so stop trying to make friends with me, whatever your reasons are alright? i've had had one too many bad experiences alright? ): ive tried being friendly cos i thought that would be better, so you people wouldn't come find trouble with me right? but ohno, that didn't work, did it? i dun want to keep having to entertain you people okay? its irritiating, its wasting my time, and i fucking hate it. cos yknow what? you people just keep asking for my age, and whether im attached or not, and what fuck not? ya, then when i say i am, ohfuck, you people ask why and all? why cant i fucking be? do you have a problem with it? and yes, then too bad for you! cos its none of your fucking business, so just fuck off right? i tried saying in a nice way, oh you wont listen. i started using vulgarities and all, and wtf? you're still asking me not to be angry and all? what is your problem?! ohgosh, im really speechless. wow! you wanna know why strangers are a total turn off to me? ask, and i'll tell you. cos i can fucking promise you, you'll be disgusted. bye.
;8:43 AM
/bored again :s
couldnt find th song, so cant put into my playlist ): and YOU! if long juan feng you dun like, go hear qing tian. someone ah,
gahhhhh!! anyone got time to entertain me ma? (:
;1:56 AM
Thursday, April 9, 2009
/should i or should i not?
i nothing to do observing my belly scars, i noticed that one-of-a-kind idiot, who helped me pierce second time, go pierce a new hole for me at th bottom, so like now th top got one ugly scar, th bottom got two scars cos of th hole. hmmm, i want go pierce again! but then later the person go pierce a third hole at th bottom for me :s
wanted to pierce my lips, but thanks to someone ^^ , ive decided not to (: i agree, i dun wanna look like a lian (:
im bored, supposed to go out today. but guess im not going to, simply have got no mood liao.
;9:58 PM
/th way you make me feel, (:
someone ask whether got blog about him not, since i realised i didnt, na, one post for you (: aahhhahaha! gahh, thanks for th hershey's (: ahaha, i hope you enjoy yours kay? (: reasons why i decided to blog : this person is, cute, dun deny! sweet, stop saying i never taste you! got somemore la, but yknow what it is don't you (: or you want me say so can make you blush blush blush? (: i know i lame la,but nothing to do ma, so sorry lor :P
BLEH; ohwells, cya on sunday (: three days three days three days :s
love you loads <3(:> gonna miss you manymany yknow ): syafiq SIRAJ! (used to th caps. ) heh, write your letter soon :P
;7:18 AM
/five loaves and two fishes,
this week was okay luh, but i was happy on th 8th (: supposed to do e math test today, but since was at game when they learn standard form, so next tuesday then take ((: thank you ms kelly, (: and yeah, sigh. trying to keep everything to yourself, is proving to become more and more difficult day by day, especially when its making you feel bad for not telling a particular person ? ):
ohwells, so got three days to rest :s tmr supposed to go out with shermaine tk farah athirah and georgina one, but after what just happened, i seriously have got no mood anymore ): so yeah, i wanna scream and just cry everything out, ohgod. you ppl say one thing, but you dun know how i feel.
next week got three games, monday against dunman. seniors, i dunno how yall are gon react after you read this. but come on! i dun understand why you ppl are so like, sort of scared about th dunman game! what happened two years ago, dun bring it up anymore, are you not just bringing fear with you? last year, we whites beat them by 9. yes, i have to admit it was a hard fight, but you just have to want it that badly right? isn't that what it all takes to beat them? you people want to win them badly right? then just beat them la! cos yknow you can do it right?
that time after st margs. game then talk about th dunman game coming up, i really didnt understand why yall keep talking about things that were not supposed to be sort of talked about? as in, yall said it was to say how to beat dunman, then end up talk about something else, i totally switched off la, seriously.
whatever la, tmr hope got th mood to go out. ohwells, bye! (: love you loads, <3(:
;6:19 AM
Saturday, April 4, 2009
/wrecked from waiting,
just now went t take second jab for hepatitis B -.-'' stupid mum keep saying and making those faces :s ohwells, im bored and waiting for a msg to come in?
tmr must go church, fcuk sia, can i not go? like waste of time only, cb. somemore i dun really feel like seeing some people now, bleh.
/8th of this month? (:
;2:31 AM
Friday, April 3, 2009
/done.
th week like slow only :s but then thursday had fun with this hot guy :P ahahhaa! gahhh, im damn lazy and alrdy too dizzy to type :P th week basically rocked (: iloved wednesday game :P challenging but fun :P gahhhh!
